7 Months

Hello my little man. Today marks seven months since you've been in heaven. What a journey mommy has been on. These months seem to just creep up on me and before we know it, your first birthday will be here. This time of year reminds me so much of you. I remember you kicking in my belly during fireworks on the 4th of July, I think you liked them. This year when I watched them, I just kept thinking of what an awesome view you now have. Times like that make me feel close to you. Oh and Colton, speaking of feeling close to you, guess what I got to do today? I got to see your CHOC family! I've been wanting to volunteer for awhile now and strangely (well maybe it was in my subconscious) I decided that I was going to go up for the Family Centered Care meeting today. I got to see Miss Marta, Miss Candice, Nurse Cindy, Nurse Roberta, one of your favorite RT's Man and many more loving faces. What a special day to see all of those people. I didn't tell anyone what day it was but it sure felt special to be there, after all, that was our home together for four months! Miss Candice brought me up to the NICU and oh, do I feel you there! Daddy reminded me, that you would be there holding my hand the whole time. Miss Candice pointed to a window and there was a mommy, kangarooing in one of your gliders. Colton, that filled my heart! You are so important, so loved and so honored every day. On a day that could have been very sad for me, I felt joy. And as time slips by and I feel like you might be forgotten, I got to be in a place where your memory is ever strong. What a gift you are, my beautiful boy. Somehow I know you had something to do with me going to CHOC today, so thank you my little man!

Until someday...