Rough Week

This has been a rough week. I think it must be because there have been a lot of "finals". We had to proof Colton's gravestone and finalize it. We ordered the gliders, which is something we are so excited to do, but it feels finished. We deposited his life insurance payment. We took down all the blue ribbons that our friends had tied up all throughout the neighborhood. All so final. Maybe it just because more time has gone by and reality is settling in. I was walking our dog today and on the trails everything is so green and healthy looking and for some reason it made me think about Colton and how he never got to feel the breeze on his face or grass beneath his toes. I'm sad for him that he never made it out of the hospital, free from wires, free from needles. He had such a hard life while he was here. I only hope that where he is now he feels warmth and comfort. My heart aches for him and for those of us left behind missing him every minute of every day. I miss my beautiful boy so very much.